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chin, but her gaze remained dark and full of resentment. All I ve
ever had to do was let you have your way, wait for you to get scared
and leave. Works every time.
Scared? He almost choked. He glanced at the monitor. A tiny
wave began to build in the line. Shit.
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Scared. Oh, you ll swoop in and save the day, sure. That s
your job. But as soon as real life comes in, you re gone. Terrified I
might start to think you ll stick around or something. Then you take
off, telling yourself how noble and self-sacrificing you are when
really, you re hiding just as much as I am. The difference is, when
you go, I m the one who s left to deal with everything. So don t tell
me I m acting like a child for not wanting to get hurt by you again,
Josh. Not until you re prepared to stick around for once.
She said it all looking him dead in the eye, too. Did she see the
color seep from his face? Feel that she d struck home? It was the
quiet times, when he could almost be happy, that all the doubts
snuck in and stole his peace of mind. She d always known?
Do you remember what you said to me that night?
He almost asked which night, but half a heartbeat later, he
knew. The night she d locked him out of her life.
You couldn t even make love to me without warning me that
it was only for one night.
He could tell by her face how much that had hurt. She probably
knew it was the only way he could allow himself to give into the
hunger that had threatened to immolate him, but she d never said
anything. Never stopped him. She just pulled inside herself, warding
off the rejection until she could deal with it alone. All the while,
he d selfishly convinced himself he could have those stolen
moments to comfort her. He didn t even realize he d said the words
out loud. Now, he could only wish words existed that would take
the pain he kept inflicting away. But they didn t.
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What am I supposed to do, Miranda? he asked tiredly. He
couldn t give her what she wanted. He knew his limitations.
She shrugged, looking weary. I ve spent my whole life
waiting for you to love me tomorrow, wanting you to love me
today. And you don t want me to love you at all, but you won t let
me go. Our lives are passing us by while I wait for you. There has to
be a point where we both stop asking each other for the impossible.
He wanted to answer her, wanted to tell her it didn t have to be
impossible, but he didn t know the answer yet. A last look at the
rising swell of another hill on the monitor told him this wasn t the
time to decide anything. He shook his head at her and moved to the
door.
Josh!
He stopped, looking back over his shoulder. Probably too much
to ask that she d smile at him.
She didn t. She held out a white envelope. Jennifer brought
this for you.
What is it? It couldn t be good. Jennifer Randall and her
husband might have been a second set of parents to him, but they
couldn t be thinking very pleasantly of the man who d wrecked
Danny s chance at marriage. What if they thought the same as the
county chief, that he had something to do with their son s death? He
couldn t take looking in her eyes and seeing that. An envelope with
the message wouldn t be much better.
She shrugged. You ll have to read it, I guess. At his
expression of distaste, she had her first moment of genuine mirth.
It s not like you have anything else to do out there.
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Grudgingly, he snatched the envelope and escaped the room.
After grabbing a chair from the nearby waiting room, he parked
himself in front of the hospital door, back to being angry as the
wood settled shut behind him.
Locked out, again.
He sat there, brooding over her words. She had a few points.
But she was wrong on other things. Never been there before, his ass.
He was always there. Always the one to catch her when she fell.
Always the one she came to when crap hit the fan. Always the one
who protected her from herself.
And then what?
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